I made something happen last night. And the end result was so horrible that it kept me reevaluating the decision I have made. Was it the RIGHT thing to do?
If last night's turn of event never happened, I think I would have hurt someone so deep to the point where the heart is torn over decisions. So I made a choice to back off and stay in the shadows, and continue the norm of life. But... I have doubts. Can I let this matter go? Am I really bulletproof?
But what would be the positivity if nothing ever happened last night? Chances are I might succeed with that 1%. Or less. But I'm probably just thinking too much like I always do. The fairytale story is so tempting...
After last night, I feel like... I am out of breath. The lack of air stings a bit. Tiny bit. But I tell myself, it's all for the better. I am a rogue after all. I can manage without inhaling oxygen and instead synthesize the carbon dioxide to get oxygen myself.
The last thing to do is put on a mask of happiness and last through the final 4 months. Wish me luck~ :)
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