The headlines recently depicted many things. The death of Osama bin Laden on the hands of US Navy SEALs (I don't know for sure but there are a lot of conspiracies if you do read the news), the rebel Libyans' struggle against dictatorship, the political chaos in Malaysia and many other incidents. Everything is in a rush. A mad and chaotic dash for a non-existent finish line.
As I read all these news, I feel the time moving ever so slowly. I feel myself hovering forward with time without making the slightest movement. I feel insignificant in this world, an invisible presence. I concluded that I lack achievements. Recently, I've done nothing to boast about. Nothing to be proud of. Just a monotonous and routine life.
From here, I understood how one can get depressed so easily. Especially those with a job.
And right now, I feel horrible. I feel like an unappreciative brat who whines always. I do know I have a lot of things in life to be grateful about. But right now... I just feel so... empty.
Others can see what you have but you can't because your eyes can't see what's behind you, unless you turn around and analyse. Problem is, how many are willing to do so? Its a competitive world out there, no spare moment for you to stop and ponder upon your past.
Here's something and a song I find suitable to go along with the mood.
And now as I slowly wallow,
Into the abyss with no end.
My interior feels so hollow,
Feelings I wish to comprehend.
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| Stop and stare... |
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